The hisssssssss of the gas machine,
The hummmmm of the strip-lights,
The reassuring voice of the midwife,
The screams and shouts and curses,
Of my wife,
As she paints the air between us
Blue with her words.
Shredding my ears,
Carving my arms,
Crushing my hand.
Like an umbilical sheesha pipe,
She sucks and chews
On the Entonox tube in her mouth,
Gripping the bed-rail for dear life,
As she rides the waves of pain,
That threaten to capsize her world.
That threaten to capsize our world.
And all I want:
Is my child,
To be safe in my arms,
To be held close in my arms,
For my wife to be safe…
…And for her to stop hitting me,
Before I am thrown overboard
On the heaving, linoleum floor.
Do I stand here and
‘Take my punishment like a man’?
Become a father in deed, not just name?
Do I sink down,
My body collapsing
Into the deep, brown armchair,
By the side of the bed
And let the midwife mop up
The bloody mess?
Or do I run for the closing door,
While there’s still time?
© Glyn Phillips
Something you should know:
Glyn Phillips is a poet from the West Midlands, with two books, various slam titles and a rather large moustache. He often writes comic pieces. This isn't one of those times. In 'Doorways' a man stands on the cusp of fatherhood as his world is about to change forever.
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